Nak cerita tp belum mampu..

I always wish everything is alright and everyone is healthy, happy and in Allah SWT protection...

Owh.... Cant help it anymore... Too much sadness in this Ramadhan 2015...

Owh Allah SWT... Permudahkanlah urusan kami, perelokkanlah semuanya, panjangkanlah umur kami semua...

Sebenarnya nak start bercerita ttg somethings happens during this Ramadhan... Let it be first... Am currently really Down and Demotivated.... 

Kuatkanlah semangatku dan semua...

Amin.

Biarlah tatapan kuih karipap yg baru dibuat ini jadi tatapan kita. Bila semangatku dah ada.. Akanku luahkan segalanya...

Raya Aidilfitri 2013

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri..
Maaf Zahir dan Batin..
Semoga semua sihat sejahtera serta sentiasa di bawah rahmatnya... Amin...
Esok sudah mula berkerja utk kami yg berada di pantai timur...
Sudah mula bertebaran bekerja serta berkhidmat untuk negara...

Tahun ini, merupakan 'record' for our family untuk tidak beraya di kampung or balik ke kampung...
Selalunya anak yg balik ke rumah ibu bapa tapi kali ni, mama, mok, maksu and ayah su datang ke rumah kami di Terengganu ini untuk meraikan hari raya... oleh kerana kami berdua oncall/standby untuk both our plants.....
Mmg terasa sgtlah di perantauan... tak ke mana2 selain bermaafan sesama kami semua... TApi alhamdulillah, nikmat Allah sentiasa ada untuk kami...
Sememangnya this RAYA is a sedang sedang aja.. even me myself tak beli pun baju raya/kasut raya or anything for myself.. (might be factor umur gak kot) ....
Sememangnya routine raya di perantauan ni (nak tulis gak, supaya at least I know and I must be mentally prepared how is it  raya kat perantauan walaupun kat MAlaysia)...
1. Pagi raya : semua org mandi sunat hari raya... bersiap-siap pakai baju raya...
2. Pergi ke masjid utk solat sunat hari raya.. Solat Raya ni dimulakan ngan 2 rakaat baru khutbah yaa... jgn tersilap or tertukar with solat Jumaat.. :)
3. Kepada kaum ibu yg duk dirumah haaaaa.... kalu bleh settlekanlah letak biskut dalam tpt biskut malam raya tu.. kalu tak kalut hang.. :) panaskan makanan yg nak dijamu... owh.. jgn lupa... tempah SATE!...
Ia amatlah membantu... kami order 150 cucuk and alhamdulillah sampai raya ke 3 still ok and habis licin...
4. selesai solat raya, balik rumah... makan makan... minum minum and isikan perut yg perlu diisi sebagai meraikan kejayaan kita berpuasa selama sebulan (walaupun gegirls ada yg tertinggal sbb we know why? )
5. Aktiviti wajib kita beramai2 adalah bermaaf maafan with org tua kita, and also aktiviti yg ditunggu3 oleh children... Pemberian duit raya... :) Alhamdulillah...
6. Photo session with family.. :)
7. The list go on... makan lagi2...

Bulan Puasa bulan mulia...

Alhamdulillah being able to reach Ramadhan this year and hoping to do all the best kebajikan kepada Allah SWT...

Semoga Allah membuka pintu rahmat, pahala, kesempurnaan kepadaku, keluarga dan seluruh rakan2....

Announcent dr mohor besar raja raja... Rabu start posa thn 2013

Apa lagi... Niatlah... :)

Semoga beroleh keberkatan... Ihya ya Ramadhan...

Lost...

Have you ever felt lost and missing someone you really go to their shoulder for help?

Yes, I do... My Abah... 

When he is alive and 'sihat', we as a teenage/youngsters always seems like ignoring our parent because we know that we are always right... 'Darah panas'... Yes, that is the right word...

We tend to do ikut nafsu... Huhuhu.. Pergi jejalan... Kekadang tak bgtau kuar etc...

Now, when i have my own children... I then realized, that what that our parents do is to protect us from bad things... And that is what exactly our parents do... 

I do make mistakes and thanks to Allah, Abah and Mama Doa', I'm saved from get worst or any anasir jahat...

I've once read... 

You've never realiZed what ur parents doing until you have your own children..

Yet, It is soooooo TRUE..

Owh Abah, I wish I can talk with you, sharing ideas, shop with you, call you whenever i got lost in town... Even tolong isinkan minyak kereta or bawa kereta gi servis.. Yeah, i'm manja like that...

Seeing you with mama happy together is a heaven for me... Maafkan Ana if i do get too nakal and rebel at times... Its just me and i hope i've done better...

To see u smile on my graduation day, when i score straight A's, when I first accepted for my first job, when You holding Strawberry, makes me smile and feels like heaven 'thank you Allah for all'.

So, ladies and gentelmen... With do respect.. Appreciate your abah/ayah/baba/daddy whise still alive... Whose not, jgn lupa doakan beliau and sedekahkan Alfatihah... 

Happy Father's Day , Abah...

Al fatihah... 

Haji Che Kamarudin Deraman

P/s: also, Alfatihah to Ayah Su's ayah... Passed away last Monday... Semoga ditempatkan bersama-sama roh orang yg soleh..Amin...

Outstation Part2

When I came to think... Why do our company send us to outstation... I figured out that with that, it beneficial our tourism industries, things that we get, we give back to community and others..,e.g of thetourism industries which get advantages are;
1. Taxi : i use taxi alot when outstation using air. Kalau tak, patah kaki.
2. Hotel : of courselah i stayed at hotel for every trip. Kalau x nk duk mana.
3. Usahawan setempat : of course the 'outsationers' shop paling cikai pun makanan or souvinir for family
Hehehe, sambung nantilah... Pening menaip atas teksi.... Nite!

Rindu...

Being away with family and home due to work..
How do we feel? Missing? Alone?
For me, i miss home a lot. Yes, bila duk rumah mmg rasa nk kuar je.. Bila dah kuar rasa rindu kat anak2, rumah, bapanya.. Hehehehe..
Owh, pernahkah kita dengar ungkapan 'absence make a heart goes fonder'?
That is true, so true...
Makin lama berpisah makin kuat rindu itu.. Waaahhh, apaku melalut ni?
Sebenarnya tgh boring tunggu gate pintu B4 ni buka... :)
YaAllah, selamatkan n permudahkanlah perjalanan kami pulang ke rumah.. Amin...

Tunang maksu

Today is the day...
Semoga Pertunanagan Maksu berjalan dgn lancar... :)
Am really hapy woth you...
Bersambung selepas majlis berlangsung...

Move

We've been moving...
Rantau bukit to Rantau Laut...

5 years

Alhamdulillah...
Flashback, 5 years ago.. I considered myself as being the most Lucky Lady on the date 17/11...
My akad nikah with abg n also my Abah's birthday...
Everything is as per planned and alhamdulillah, on 17/11 evening, am a Wife to my beloved hubby...
Thank you Allah for giving me all the best person in my life.. I couldnt ask for more...
I can still remember the akad nikah, those happy tears, those smile, abah's n mama's nasihat to be a good wife and taat to hubby..
At that time i realised how much my parents love me... Why sometimes they become overprotected, conservative n sometimes very strict... All because they love me.. N now i am a parents n realised it why...
Abang, thank you for guiding me to be a good wife walaupun i know banyak kena improve..
Mama n abah, for guiding me become a better person..

5th Anniversary

Wonderful years with you Abang syg..
'time flies when you’re having fun'. It's true..
Loving you unconditionally...
Alhamdulillah this year we celebrate it with our 3 princesses n I am in pantang.. :)

Happy Anniversary Abg Sayang..

Alfatihah to Ayah Keri

My Dear Uncle at Kelantan, Ayah Keri had passed away yesterday 14 nov 2011 due to Heart attack..menurut post mortem yg dibuat..
Beliau telah disemadikan di perkuburan batu 11, ketereh bersebelahan kubur Abah n datuk..
Mama, abg, uncle n faiz balik melawat..
Daku masih di dlm pantang, so abg x bagi pergi, lgpun baby masih menyusu bdn..
Mama cerita ayah keri collapse kat Pej KADA n meninggal.. Bafore that on hari raya haji he had stroke n still kuat semangat lwn penyakit cam abah... Tp, wajah dia mama kata bersih shj..
semoga rohnya dan Abah dicucuri rahmat , ditempatkan bersama org soleh, serta dielakkan dr seksaan kubur... Amin.

Beringatlah, mungkin harini esok pula hari kita.. Mati tak mengenal usia.. Jika Allah kehendaki maka jadilah ia...
Harini ada manusia yg dilahirkan & ada juga manusia yg disemadikan.. Kembalilah je jalan Allah.

Life after 3rd preggy

I am trying myswlf to adjust to be a good mother for 2 kids and 1 infant...
Am feeling quite ok at first, tp bila sang suami balik bekerja di perantauan, daku keseorangan di sini yg kena handle.. Mmg memenatkan..
Malam especially, bila sorang nangis2 n diikuti oleh yg lain cam berjemaah pula nangisnya, pastu siap muntah2 atas tilam n nk pergi toilet. Aku dah strt jadi monster.. Sib baik ada my grandma yg volenteer titon skali n tolong mmg appreciate it much Yee... I love you!
Owh abg, kalau kanda baca ini, ketahuilah.. Dinda memerlukan kanda saat begini!!!

Cobaan

Hahaha.. Right niw xde mood nksambung part 2 punya cerita.. :)

Tomorrow check up at APSH... Hope everything's doing fine... Amin...
Risau gak, hubby jauh dimata dekat dihati nk berulang jauh2, nk2 lg if emergency ( in case )..
Ya Allah, permudahkan dan selamatkan segalanya...

Kampung halamanku

Minggu ni blk rumah MIL..
Shop shop sket utk baby A... Waaa... dah ada gelaran dah baby.. X keluar lg...:) hope sgt baby kuar after raya haji... Teringin nk mkn nasi dagang, ketupat, rendang n enjoys raya...
Kelantan mmg murah2.. Set bantal, bolster, n tilam baby with sarung skali rm50 je.. Compared to others yg mmg ratusan...
Beli baju mummy sket2 n bhn mkn sket.. Mmg murah 2x ganda with tpt tinggalku skang...
I even asked/suggest hubby utk duk kelantan sbb bleh berjimat sgt... :)
Nantilah, kita dah pencen or nk pencen nanti kita kelik duk sana.. Yg penting, kita kena buat rumah dulu di sana.. :)

Weekend

Owh, today sgt menyenangkan walaupun hanya berlingkar and bersenang lenangan di dalam bilik bersama2 hubby n anak2...
Yes, today cuti n tidak dihabiskan dgn keluar berjalan2 kecuali ke pasaraya n pasar mlmptg td...
And hasilnya, diriku ini x boleh titon n x mengantuk di kala tgh2 mlm ini...
STK.

Blk

Ada org tu blk harini.. Owh, sgt happy n excited sgt2...
Then, bw blk murtabak sekodi... Hehehe.. Mmg best lg sedap..

3rd trimester

Antara ibu yg sedang sakit n isteri yg sedang sarat mengandung... Mmg payah nk membuat pilihan n jaga...
Ya, aku mmg sedang sarat skang... Kaki sudah mulai bengkak2, muka pun sama, backache worsening, tpt operate dulu sakit, nk handle 2 princess lg... With work @ office yg makin mrnggunung..
Sungguh, i do need attention from him Really right now... I need someone to massage my back yg sakit, jaga mkn minum, tolong comfortkan masa i tgh tense@ emosional not stable, tolong betulkan kaki yg tgh cramp... Owh haritu i do cramp for 10 mins ya.. Could not do anything kwcuali thn sakit..
Owh, mmg tuhan bagi cabaran maybe nk hapus dosa n tgk sejauh mana kita bertahan..
Owh, baby n mummy, bertahan ya.. Tunggu bulan 11... Jgn kuar awal ya.. Tq.

Outing...

Outing..
Wohooo.. Outing with 2 child while u r preggy is a mess kalau one or 2-2 of them is not behaving well..
Skang penat... Mau titon slu...

Berjauhan..

Hurm.. Bila dah anak ramai br start rasa kena independent lebih2... Bila anak xde lagi or satu masih berkepit and xleh berjauhan.. I wonder why?
Pastuh, bila berjauhan.. Why perempuan/wifey cam lelebey rindu n missing sgt si hubby dgn call x sudah, msg byk2, video call bagai padahal si dia rilek jerk..
Hurm.. I wonder why....

Raya

Hari raya adalah hari yang mulia...

Perjuangan menghadapi bulan ramadhan yang mulia..

Menentang nafsu makan minum, dan semua segala gala nafsu...

Alhamdulillah, thn ni sekali lagi aku dapat berpuasa penuh..

Hehe, bukan calang2.. Org yg preggy ni mmg dapat keistimewaan utk puasa sebulan sama cam org lelaki..

Tp, adakah amalan n ibadah kita cukup byk or cukup utk kita mendapat keredhaannya?

Aku amatlah berharap kita semua n semua keluargaku dipertemukan dgn ramadha yg mendatang.